Of course I miss you.
That’s a no brainer. For a moment, everything felt out of place. The first night sleeping without you in my arms, and vice versa, was the coldest. The first morning not waking up to a Good morning text felt empty. The day we were supposed to hang out, when we had plans, I sat at home and I balled my eyes out. Every waking moment hurt to the bone. I hate that shit. I’ve been through this before and I honestly hate this shit.
But if the past repeats itself, as it usually does, you won’t be the post I try to write on tumblr anymore. (haha)
You won’t be the scratch paper I scribble on every day at work, the advice I ask for, the reason why my mood just changes out of nowhere. You won’t be the paper on the wall that lists all the reasons why I need to get over you. You won’t be the fast heart beat that happens every time someone brings up your name. Eventually, YOU will not be a factor.
I just cant believe it, you know. I mean I can. I saw it coming, but the fact that I had so much faith in you, saw so much potential, I’m more disappointed than I am sad.
I’m only “heart broken” because that’s how it’s supposed to feel after everything’s said and done. But trust me, I don’t lose sleep over you. I never wonder what-if, because you’ve already proved to me every single scenario in the book. And quite frankly, thank you for that.
I will be better, for sure. But please, if anything, please promise me that you will learn.
I feel it